Kylie May

Kylie May

Layla Faith

Layla Faith

Zoey Noelle

Zoey Noelle


Our baby boy, due March 16th.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Forgot to Post!

Sorry, friends! I forgot to post about my appointment last week. It was a busy week preparing for Adam & Staci's wedding. We had a lot to get done before we left on Friday morning. (Most of you are on Facebook, so I figured you knew my appointment went well.)

We had another great appointment. I'm 14 weeks now. We heard the heartbeat but didn't get an ultrasound. I wanted one, but Bryan convinced me that the heartbeat was enough. It's always nice to see you baby. I think a piece of me would like to see that Beanie looks 'normal'. So I'm anxious for our big ultrasound! We have another normal appointment on November 6th. Then our appointment with Dr. Hayes is on the 15th. It's the anatomy ultrasound. They'll measure everything & we will be finding out what we're having. After all of our ultrasounds with Layla, I don't think we could sit through a 3D ultrasound without seeing what the gender is.

I wanted so badly to have a big gender reveal party last year. I had it all planned with cute invites and games. We cancelled it when we found everything out a few days before our party. So, I'm a little bummed that we never we able to do that. We'll have a little family party with Beanie to reveal the gender. Which will be just as fun!

For an update: Beanie is great and we're thrilled.

Last weekend was Adam & Staci's wedding. Everything went as planned. Kylie was amazing! She was so well behaved. She looked and was treated like a princess the whole day. Bryan look pretty handsome, too, in his fancy tux. Of course, the bride was gorgeous! I'll have to post pictures sometime.

Kylie May's 4th birthday was on Tuesday. We had candy for breakfast & she got to be home with Bryan all afternoon since he was off. Her party is on Friday, so I'm running errands to get ready for that!

That's the quick update! Pics from the party & wedding to come soon! Happy Wednesday.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Hair Dryer Time

Kylie has been sick for a little over a week. She has a bad cough and cold. No fever. We're trying to get her lots of sleep & get her healthy before this weekend. Adam & Staci's wedding is on Saturday!

Well, now Bryan is sick. He gets sick so easily. And I'm sorry honey, but men are terrible at being sick! I'm sure all you women out there would agree with me.

So, I woke up to Bryan coughing & complaining about being sick. Kylie asking me to get up and give her cereal. Such is the life of a mom & wife.

Anyway, my favorite moment of the day was when I was drying my hair! Sounds funny, but it was great. Bryan was in the bedroom being all sleepy & pouting about being sick. Kylie was in the bathtub (after I had worked very hard to wash her hair) begging me to fix this fishing pole toy. I happily turned on my hair dryer (which perfectly drowned out the noise) and proceeded to dry my hair. Today, I made sure every strand was dry. I truly enjoyed that time to ignore my family think about and prepare for my day.

My point is, us ladies deserve time to do our hair. Make yourself a priority for a few minutes or more everyday! Don't feel guilty. Love every second of it!

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Quick Post

Just a quick post to say 'hi'! And I wanted ya'll to check out my new design. It's a freebie again. I thought it was cute.

I've been spending my free thinking time thinking about Adam & Staci's wedding next weekend. Last minute details and things I need to buy. I found a dress, but need some flats for the reception. Kylie needs a sweater in case it's cold. My mom is coming along to help with Kylie. (It won't be hard, but I just want Kylie to go to bed early on Friday & things like that.)

We have a Beanie apt next week Wednesday. I feel like I'm getting bigger, but nobody else can tell. None of my clothes fit. I'm just hoping I look more pregnant than like I've gained weight for the wedding!

Other thoughts are about the wedding show in January. I do wedding videos, so I'll have a booth at the big Green Bay wedding show. I'm super excited & trying to figure out what my booth will look like. Any suggestions are welcomed.

I just finished another long Wednesday of work. Heading home for popcorn & Modern Family with Bryan. Have a good week!

PS - I added an Instagram Photostream page. There's a link on the top left. I'm always posting pics to Instagram & thought I'd share. The sizing isn't quite right, but if you click on the pic you can see it all. 

Wednesday, October 03, 2012

We Didn't Have Enough Time

Man, was I nervous for our appointment yesterday. I don't know why. I had so much faith for so long, I feel like it's wearing out. I know that's not a 'thing'. I saw this quote on Pintrest "People cry, not because they're weak. It's because they've been strong for too long." I feel that way often. I didn't sleep on Monday night. I was awake early and my appointment was at noon. It was a long morning, trying to focus & stay distracted with my work. I think I had a 'strong' mindset for a solid 15 weeks with Layla. I have let my mind wander from that these past few weeks. We've had appointments every two weeks and this stretch was three. Anyway, I'm a bit embarrassed to say I was a wreck. However, all of the strong comments, scriptures and posts on Facebook helped a ton. I don't remember the last time that I referred to a status update multiple times a day. I literally re-read those many times before noon. Thank you for that. I know I should be able to do that myself, but it sure does help to have you all saying the things I should say to myself. Thank you, really.

My fear & anxiousness was for nothing. Beanie's heartbeat was 172 (faster than the girls' ever were). This was the first time we heard the heartbeat. We've been having the 'crappy' (our Dr. uses a different word) ultrasound machine, but it finally broke. So, we just got the heartbeat. Bryan couldn't be there, but my mom came with. I know someday I'll have to go by myself, but I just don't want to. I almost pulled out my phone to record the heartbeat for Bryan & Kylie, but we were already done when I thought of it. Maybe next time. I know Kylie would love it. She wanted to come to my appointment to hold my hand. She's so sweet. (This week has been exceptionally better with Kylie. She's doing great at home & school.)

When I checked my Facebook this morning, I saw a friend's post who is 37 weeks. Her post read something about "can't wait to bring our baby girl home". This struck me for some reason. As I thought about it, I realized why. I have literally been thinking one appointment to the next. The thought of bringing a baby home has barely crossed my mind. After that appointment in August last year, I programmed my brain to know that my baby wasn't coming home. I mean, you all know that I hoped & prayed for something different. But, I couldn't allow myself to think about Layla coming home. So I was taken back when I read that post. I'm almost 12 weeks and everything is going great. At some point, I'm going to have to think about bringing a baby home! It's not a bad thing, I just don't think it will come as easily as it should for me.

As expected, this pregnancy has made me think of Layla so much. I already think of her everyday. I was watching a tv show last night. This lady's husband died. She was tough during the entire episode. People talking about her hubby & telling stories of how great he was. But, at the end of the show she shouted toward the ocean, "We didn't have enough time!". As if to cry out to God in so much pain.

Does everyone feel this way, when someone dies? We didn't have enough time with Layla, either. In the moments, it feels like everything is set. Like you've done & said everything you could say. Until the person is gone. Then all you ache for is more time.

A lot of people know Ecclesiastes 3, "A Time for Everything". When I was reading this passage again, I read The Message version instead of NIV. I like how it reads (notice a new word that was added). It's titled "There's A Right Time for Everything".

There’s an opportune time to do things, a right time for everything on the earth: 
 A right time for birth and another for death,
A right time to plant and another to reap,
A right time to kill and another to heal,
A right time to destroy and another to construct,
A right time to cry and another to laugh,
A right time to lament and another to cheer,
A right time to make love and another to abstain,
A right time to embrace and another to part,
A right time to search and another to count your losses,
A right time to hold on and another to let go,
A right time to rip out and another to mend,
A right time to shut up and another to speak up,
A right time to love and another to hate,
A right time to wage war and another to make peace.

There is a RIGHT time for everything. Have you read the rest of that chapter, or do you stop there? Here's some more through verse 15. 

9-13 But in the end, does it really make a difference what anyone does? I’ve had a good look at what God has given us to do—busywork, mostly. True, God made everything beautiful in itself and in its time—but he’s left us in the dark, so we can never know what God is up to, whether he’s coming or going. I’ve decided that there’s nothing better to do than go ahead and have a good time and get the most we can out of life. That’s it—eat, drink, and make the most of your job. It’s God’s gift.
14 I’ve also concluded that whatever God does, that’s the way it’s going to be, always. No addition, no subtraction. God’s done it and that’s it. That’s so we’ll quit asking questions and simply worship in holy fear.
15 Whatever was, is.
Whatever will be, is.
That’s how it always is with God.

So The Message Bible just lays it out there, doesn't it? "God's done it and that's it." The part that I like is the reason. " we'll quit asking questions and simply worship in holy fear." It's done. There's no reason to ask questions or wish it would have gone a different way. Whatever was, is. God made everything beautiful. Now it's time to quit wondering about things and worship God. Trust God that He, again, knows what He's doing. Everything in His RIGHT time.