Kylie May

Kylie May

Layla Faith

Layla Faith

Zoey Noelle

Zoey Noelle

Boyee

Boyee
Our baby boy, due March 16th.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

One Month - A Heavy Heart

I feel like I should post something to recognize that it's been one month since Layla Faith was born. It's weird to say that because it's also been one month since she passed. I don't have a purpose for my post, necessarily. I feel like everyone should know and everyone should remember that it's been a month. However, I'm probably the only one who's been thinking of it all day long. I woke up thinking about it & remembering everything about the day one month ago. Today, I realized what it means to have a heavy heart. My heart was heavy today. I wasn't overly emotional or sappy, but my heart was just sad.

I'm glad I'm home right now and I find it ironically perfect that Bryan is home tonight. I thought of her at 4:29 when she was born. I got home at 5:11 and I remembered, Layla passed away at 5:18. She left the hospital with our funeral director around 8:50. I wonder how long I'll think of her when I look at the clock at those times.

For those of you who were with us at the hospital, thank you and I'm so glad that you can share in the memories and the time we had with Layla. For those of you who lifted us up in prayer and supported us the weeks leading up to and after her birth, Thank You.

...and now that I'm crying from rereading my post...off to get Kylie to bed!

3 comments:

Christy O said...

Keep on keeping on. Remember those moments. I could tell you the exact time we were told our Kiley had diabetes. Ironically, we were in that same room in the ER just the other day with Steve. We have come to make a joke of it - we call it the Kiley room. But it still was surreal. Those moments will come and it is good to remember them. I have been thinking of you today!

Lyla Our Little Miracle said...

Hi Nancy! I hope your heavy heart feels the love of your family and friends around you. I have been praying for you ever since you introduced yourself to me. And I will continue to pray for you.

mom g. said...

Oh sweetie, your saddened heart was definitely not alone at those moments; my heart was joining with you throughout the day. God has given your heart the strength to move forward, but sometimes the brain forgets to do the same and needs a little nudge. You will never, ever forget your sweet child. She will forever be in your heart, as she should.