My sister, Emily, is days away from having her little girl in Florida. Mom is there visiting and helping with Isabelle. We're anxiously awaiting news when she's born!
My sister, Sarah, is 2 weeks from her due date. We have the same Dr, and usually have our appointments on the same day. It's always nice to see her before my appointments. We have our 32 week ultrasound next Tuesday, so Sarah's coming with since mom's in Florida. I had mentioned to Sarah that I was looking for a hat for Layla that would be small enough. Today she gave me one that she found at a craft fair. It was made for a doll & it's perfect!
Kylie was Vanna for me.
On to what I wanted to write about, feeding faith. On Friday/Saturday I went on an annual shopping trip with Bryan's Aunts and cousins. It was really a great time. We spent the night in a hotel an stayed up late talking about Layla and other things. If any of you are wondering, I love talking about Layla. Of course, some days are more difficult and I'm more emotional, but typically it's a joy to talk about her. She's still my little baby and I'm already proud of everything she's been able to do from in there.
God can do it, He will do it for me, and even if He doesn't. Well, I look back at my earlier posts and I was very focused on the first two. Recently, I've been in the mindset of 'even if He doesn't'. Now, I don't think it's wrong for me to think realistically and plan for Layla not making it, however, I've been fed faith these last couple days.
On Sunday, I was able to talk to a family that is going through a hard time. I was telling them how cool it is that they're being so positive and faithful. She said we're 'feeding off each other'. That's so true. Surrounding yourself with positive people makes all the difference. We're so blessed to be around people who are constantly reminding us to be faithful. A co-worker said, "What if Layla's in the NICU at Christmas?". That would be awesome!!! Another close friend said that she is praying so hard and is so convinced that Layla will be healthy. She is ready to show the Dr.'s that they're wrong. The other phrase I heard was "God ain't done yet!". Amen. God isn't done yet!
I've been so focussed on losing Layla. I've been thinking about a memorial service and ways to honor her. Thinking of Christmas without her, how I will be after she's gone. But God ain't done yet. We need to keep praying for a miracle. At our apt on Tuesday, I'm praying that they will see more lung tissue & signs that she is practicing breathing. I'm praying that the fluid will decrease and stop building up. I'm praying that I don't go into labor early, and that we can make it until December 16th!
Thank you for praying with us and for feeding us faith. I pray that our story is feeding faith to someone out there.
2 comments:
Love and hugs to all four of you!!! We are praying with you...
Love you! Joy and Travis and kiddos
This is so beautiful, Nancy. I love how you're so honest and completely dependant on your Lord. Continuing to keep you and baby in my prayers..... Hilary
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