One Year Ago - Gender Ultrasound

We planned a super cute baby gender reveal party for the coming weekend. Had the invitations out, decorations bought, food planned. It was going to be our first party at our place in Green Bay. Finally, a good reason to have friends over .

Our ultrasound was on Tuesday, August 9, 2011. We had an invitation for the ultrasound tech to write the gender on the back of and sneak it into an envelope. Only to be opened by the person making the blue or pink cake. The tech (ironically, someone Bryan went to school/church with) started the ultrasound. Looked for the gender while we weren't watching. She had to 'step out' for a bit. We didn't think anything of it. It started taking a while, and it finally dawned on us, that something may be wrong.

We opened the door, hoping they just forgot about us. Then our Dr. came in with the news. We were shocked. No tears while she told us all of the possible problems. We didn't even have questions. After she left, I balled. We went across the hall to the Dr. office. I must have looked awful! We were referred to the specialist and had an appointment with him the next day.

Bryan and I took two cars and both went our separate ways after the appointment to our jobs. I remember driving and calling mom. She was so excited and I said it went okay. Then cried and added that something was wrong with the baby. I worked part of the day. I remember Kylie's teachers came over to talk about school. I had just cancelled the gender party via Facebook. Saying "the baby didn't cooperate, so we didn't find out the gender". What else could I have said. Bryan worked until 10. My mom, Sarah, & Emily all came over after work. They brought me dinner and we sat around and discussed all of the potential problems. They said so many different things, we had no idea what it was. I didn't Google anything that day. I just waited until our appointment the next day.

It's crazy how many details I remember about that day and every day after that. You always think 'it won't happen to me'. Then, your world gets turned upside down and you're in the middle of it. I remember the state of shock. Not knowing what to do next. I feel like it lasted the rest of the pregnancy. I read my old posts and I don't believe myself. But, at the time, it was real. It's hard to explain.

Anyway, it's been a year since that day. When our perfectly planned life turned to chaos. Thankfully, God knows what He's doing. He carried us through that day and the many more challenging days following. What a journey He has taken us on.

With all that being said, I've had this blog for almost one year. It began as a way to update long distance family members. I think it's become much more than that for me. Thank you, for supporting us since that first post. Thank you for helping us make it through this past year.