*sigh* *breathe*

I didn’t even think about bringing home a baby until Jan 3rd. Not even kidding. So we finally started talking about c-section dates and days off work. Just when I start planning  and allowing myself to get excited…the wind gets taken out of my sails.

We had our 30 wk dr. apt today. The baby had some kidney issues that have now resolved, which is great. But, now there’s too much amniotic fluid. The baby is working overdrive. Of course, the dr said a couple scary words like ‘stillbirth’. Ugh. I’ll be going in every Thursday to monitor the baby’s breathing, movement, heart rate, etc. If he doesn’t pass the ultrasound we will discuss delivery.

With all that being said, please pray for us. We are feeling drained today. Disappointed. Tired. Like we just got knocked down a few notches. Please pray that we can carry him as long as possible and that we won’t need to deliver too early! Also that Bryan and I can feel some peace and be able to navigate through this once again.

Thank you for supporting us. This feels all too familiar.