Please Be My Strength

Bryan posted a week or so ago. He said, "This is testing me and my faith to a measure that I didn't know existed. I am not sure how to feel right now. There will be a point where the feeling overflows, a point where I let it all out." I can't speak for him, but yesterday was rough. I think that when our car broke down, that was our tipping point. Bryan, Kylie and I were sitting on the curb with a car that was smoking. For about 2 minutes, I wasn't tough. I could only think of everything bad in our lives right now. I shed a few tears, and Kylie came on my lap & hugged me. She said, "It's okay, mom. It's okay." It was so sincere. I think God was using her for me. 

Most of you know, I'm usually pretty optimistic & positive. Today, I've been feeling sorry for myself. I don't feel sympathy for anyone else. I feel guilty about it. Not only that, but I've been more emotional. Well, I am pregnant, so I cry easily anyway!

I guess my point is that I can't stay like this. I wouldn't be able to make it if I stayed in this place of self-pity. Yet again, God came through for us with the car. I don't need to say who, but someone paid for it to get fixed. Just when we think we're stuck, God does His thing. 

So, right now, I'm calling on God to pull me out of this rut. It was my 24 hours of feeling sorry for myself. I have to pick my head up & move on :)

I'm looking for a place where I can plant my faith. One thing I know for sure, 

that I cannot create it. I cannot sustain it. It's your love that's keeping me. 

Please be my strength,

Please be my strength,

I don't have anymore. 

I don't have anymore. 

-"Please Be My Strength" by Gungor