Kylie May

Kylie May

Layla Faith

Layla Faith

Zoey Noelle

Zoey Noelle


Our baby boy, due March 16th.

Saturday, February 25, 2012

How Can I Keep From Singing?

His favor lasts a lifetime. The nights of crying your eyes out give way to days of laughter. I am about to burst with song. I can't keep quiet about You. God, my God, I can't thank you enough. (Psalm 30:4 & 12 The Message)

I put the above as my Facebook status the other day. It had been a really good day. I was feeling God's favor on us with our upcoming move and a new/additional job! We're so anxious to move into our new place. I can't believe we get the keys on Wednesday already.

My days are such a roller coaster. One day I can be feeling fabulous, and the next I could be upset about anything. Probably just part of the 'process'. As Layla's 3 month birthday is approaching, I'm thinking of her more and more. That, and I have a couple close friends/family with new babies, so she's always on my mind.

I find it ironic or something, that this year there is a 29th in February. Back to the numbers that are stuck in my head. We had Layla on 11-29-11 at 4:29pm. Our room number was #429.

I attended a baby baptism at a Catholic church a few weeks ago. One of the songs they sang was the old hymn "How Can I Keep Fron Singing?" I always love singing a good hymn. They are so raw, simple, and old fashion. They seem so genuine. The words are so formal. I loved the lyrics.

What though the darkness gather round!
Songs in the night He giveth: 
No storm can shake my inmost calm 
While to that refuge clinging; 
Since Christ is Lord of Heav’n and earth, 
How can I keep from singing?

I love the way the Message Bible phrases Psalm 30:4. "The nights of crying your eyes out give way to days of laughter." It's so true. While I was pregnant with Layla, I feel like I rarely had a good night's sleep. Every night I slept with a tear-soaked pillow. The good days are beginning to out number the bad/sad. The 29th is coming up fast for me. I feel like it will be hard for some reason.

Kylie has been talking about Layla a lot this week. Maybe Bry & I are talking about her more. I'll share a super cute song she sang to me today in my next post. 

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I always think of things to write and then I don't. Maybe after the move, I'll make time for it. I really do love sharing my thoughts. Thanks for checking in on us and thinking of us & remembering Layla. Bryan sends me texts from work that say, "miss u 3". (Me, Kylie & Layla) I LOVE it! :)

1 comment:

Lyla Our Little Miracle said...

Hey sweetie! Such exciting news about your new place! And the new job. :)
I think it's so wonderful that you all are thinking of Layla. How could you not. She came into this world and passed too quickly. She will always be your daughter. No one would ever expect you to be happy and perfect all day everyday after going through the loss of a child. I don't think if it were me that I would be able to handle life so gracefully and beautifully as you are handling things. I am so happy that you have a strong faith in god and I am especially happy that you have a blog to vent all your feelings down. I think doing that is so important. God Bless! and good luck with the upcoming move! xoxo